Thursday, August 14, 2014

Back to work

Today, after three months of snuggling my sweet babies, I returned to work. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't anticipate all the emotions I would feel. Andrew and I pushed them in the stroller last night as we window shopped, and I kept looking at their little faces and feeling such overwhelming love for them. They are both becoming so alert and recognizing our faces and voices, but they're also still so tiny and want to be snuggled all the time.

Andrew fed them last night so I could get a little extra rest, and I cried when I saw them all snuggled up. Even though I knew I'd be working from home in the morning (and on Tuesdays and Thursdays from now on), I couldn't help feeling a bit like it was the ending of an era. I wouldn't be there for every smile. I couldn't comfort them every time they cried. I wouldn't be able to snuggle them after feeding them in the afternoons.

Then Andrew, who is always much wiser than me, reminded me that we'll both have the evenings to feed our babies, to hold them, to watch them smile and laugh and grow. We'll have Saturdays and Sundays and vacations with them. And occasionally, when they're sick, we'll have weekdays to snuggle them and revel in their tiny hands and feet.

I look forward to work life and making a difference there, and I also look forward to my new life as a mother, making a difference to my sweet babies. We can do this.

Photo by Valery Bunnell


  1. the first day is the hardest, but once you get back into routine it will be okay. for some reason i thought you were already back at work! but i wish you luck and calmness. hugs!

  2. It seems like you have the best of both worlds, to me.

  3. You have this Lindsay! You are great!

  4. That is great you can do some from home! You may talk about this is another post (I'm about to catch up now!) but are you utilizing daycare or maybe a home babysitter? We just found a sitter to come to the house while I'm working two days a week and she's great! -♥- Rachel (For the Birds)

  5. You can do this, guys!!!
    I returned to work when Nadia was four months old and worked on weekends only since then. There were moments I will never recall as I haven't been present when they happened but I had more time and fun with her than I could ever known I'd have. I'm grateful for every moment because I know she is enjoying her time with both of us.
    All the best for your lovely family of four xxx


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